June 27th, 2004

Time: 06:09 pm

hey guys! i'm going to camp for a couple days so if you want to talk to me or anything email me at this address: umcamp@erols.com and put for nora for the subject! peace out!

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May 28th, 2004

Time: 10:59 pm

hey y'all! i've been having these nightmares recently. like i'm at work (my pretend non existent one) and i know that my sister is moving that day but i figure that shes going to wait until i get home from work to move. so i get home from work, and she's gone. just left. without any goodbyes or anything. she just leaves. and i wake up crying hysterically. i mean i don't even know her that well...i think thats whats bothering me; that shes leaving in 2 weeks for 2 years to california. and by teaching, shes not going to be getting a lot of money. so god knows when i'm going to be seeing her agian. by the time her 2 years are over, if she decides to come back, which i doubt, than i'll be in college and it will be too late to get to know her. she's my sister and i don't know the first thing about her. and shes been out of this house for 6 years already, but she was in the state. she stopped by every once in awhile. and i knew that shed be home for the dreaded holidays. and if i wanted to talk to her, than shed be there. but i never did. not that she gives 2 shits about me. i just feel like i should have tried harder to get to know her. she's my sister. then agian, its not like she did so much to be there for me either. whatever. i'm going to miss her.

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May 26th, 2004

Time: 09:27 pm

umm...i don't know how to begin. i don't know what i should say, i just felt like i should write. so here i am! but um...it's really hard to say. and actually typing it and saying it makes it seem so much more permanent, real. but its almost been a year since Valerie died. there's not a day that goes by without her popping into my mind, not a day that goes by without memories of her flooding back to me. but, i mean, it's been a year without her. without seeing her. without talking to her. without hearing her. and it's hard. like somedays it's easy to pretend because month after month my picture of her fades a little bit. and that scares me. when i'm 50 years old, will i remember her? will i remember what she looks like or sounds like? or even in 5 years from now. yea, umm...its just hard. the next couple weeks will be even harder. knowing that she died a year ago. a full year. so much has happened in the past year. stuff that i couldn't tell her about or that she could experience with me...she would be graduating this year. going off to college. living her life on her own. growing up. walking across the stage and recieving her diploma....but she's not. and if its going to hurt this much every time june 2 rolls by, i...i don't know what i'm going to do. i wish i could just block everything out. pretend it never happened, its not that hard to do most days. so yea, sry guys. :/

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April 23rd, 2004

Time: 08:21 pm

wat the fuck is the matter with me?

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March 24th, 2004

Current Music: Newlyweds Time: 10:16 pm Current Mood: cold

all i have to say is: thank the Lord of the O.C.

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March 1st, 2004

Subject: THE KING AND I Time: 06:16 pm

its over! the greatest show ever is over! but it still has not hit me. it will soon though. i'm going to miss all the rehearsals and not having any other type of life besides the play. i'm going to miss everyone! it seems like they're all leaving! no marissa or caro or chelsea or jay or giorgio or anyone!!!!! stop the press!!! jenna and mike are FINALLY going out! its a friggin miracle! it was so funny we all knew what was going on and it was happening because amanda came running in and was like OMG hes doing it! and then like 2 minutes later colleen and whoever else came sprinting in screaming she said yes!!!!!! and re-enacted it. so then we all got into a congo line and starting saying pretty pretty princess pretty pretty princess around them! sat night- chilled at amanda's house with der, jenna, and laura. "i have friends....i've been drunk before" i luv laura! i dont even know wat we did. we were like lets play truth or dare without the dares! so then at the end of the night at like 1:30, der left and gave her a kiss goodbye! it was so cute! he tried so hard! but as soon as he left we were all like ummm hahahaha! friday was def. our BEST BEST BEST BEST performance. it was great. or at least i thought it was. ej was amazing just like everyone else! we were all just really into it. and awake for once. i was extremely proud of everyone! friday night we all went out to applebees. it was fun. not as fun as it usually is but its ok! everyone was talking about the bra incident. and showing the pictures. it was funny though. not that embarrassing. just gross! i so dont ever want to wear that bra ever ever ever again! i need to sterilize it! i g2g eat dinner. more later

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February 26th, 2004

Current Music: i have dreamed- tkai Subject: THE KING AND I Time: 11:37 pm Current Mood: ecstatic

OPENING NIGHT!!!! it was AMAZING! a friggin MASTERPIECE! we all did so awesome and i am proud of everyone in the cast and love you soo incredibly much! i cannot wait for the next 3 days! THE KING AND I FRIDAY @ 7:30 SATURDAY @ 7:30 SUNDAY @ 2:00 BE THERE! thats all i'm going to say...i need to sleep. :-)

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February 25th, 2004

Subject: shut up white trash! Time: 11:03 pm

who knew that oriental was a slang? just found that out today. crazy. i'm so hyper right now! like beyond belief! i mean its 11:05 and i have not slept at all this week so i'm like bouncing off the walls. i don't even remember today. all i know is that i had so much fun! this whole week just seems like a blur. i seriously have no recollection of actually being in any of my classes. ah well. all the guys shaved their heads...pretty sexy! jenna and mike FINALLY confessed their undying devotion towards each other. friggin took them long enough! "ew" i'm katerina! we did the show for the 5 graders today. i don't think i like 5 graders. they were hard to play for. because with little kids you make everything BIG and cheesey but 5 graders would just be like ew wat are they doing? but they're not adults. so after the show we had nothing to do but chill out in the band room! fun things happen in there! haha! we got some micheal jackson, justin timberlake, cyndi lauper, greenday, and shake your booty music up in that joint! hell yea mother fucker! there def should have been more guys in there than just jay! but i heart him! it was just fun. you had to be there. we're a bunch of dorks. are we ever. i actually took the 1:40 bus home and slept! wow! i know! i slept! it was great! i loved every minitue of it! i went back to the school at 5 and from then on...wow. i could not control myself! like i just laughed the whole time. icouldn't stop. but we were all like that. i'm white trash, amandas just a friggin dog, ashleys a spic, and katerinas a dirty greek! haha you know i'm just kidding, i really don't mean it but it was just so funny! ashley was on a roll. we were being so ridiculous. i seriously almost peed my pants like 100 times especially onstage during the death scene! i was trying to hard to get into character and then ej screws his lines up and giorgio said some random line to get them in which cracked us up. but b4 that i look over and i see alleina and shes tearing like crazy so i was all jealous and like wow of her and then shes like ouch i just got hit in the eye! and for some reason that just completely ruins it for the rest of the scene. so me, amanda, ashley, and alleina were just sitting there laughing hysterically but trying to hide it the best we could and disguise it as tears and it so was not working. i got yelled at later for it but wateve! burp green purple blue nine! nine? mooo! ahhh! haha i swear the guys masterbate in the bathroom. cuz we'd be in there and we'd keep hearing these moans from there! it was soooo funny! i don't even know. my mind is so boggled right now. i can't think straight. i'm like whaaaa? stoner! you give head! haha lets spread the rumors! hey mike can i check your eyes? i need to stop babaling about god knows wat. nothing makes sense which is whyi'm gonna go do my hw! fun right?!

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February 18th, 2004

Current Music: your mom? Time: 11:37 pm Current Mood: sleepy

ummmmmmm yea i hate this semester. and you know what i hate even more? not being able to go to sleep because of this semester! oh grrrrr! but the O.C. made me happy :-)

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February 17th, 2004

Current Music: start me up-the rolling stones Time: 09:36 pm

Something has changed within me Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity And you can't pull me down! I'm through accepting limits 'Cuz someone says they're so Some things I cannot change But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of Losing love I guess I've lost Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost! I'd sooner buy Defying gravity Kiss me goodbye I'm defying gravity And you can't pull me down ~wicked

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February 16th, 2004

Current Music: defying gravity- wicked Time: 09:59 pm

haha hey! we totally fooled around and did nothing during rehearsal! we started doing the cha cha slide, macarena, cotton eyed joe, and the electric slide onstage in our hoop skirts. classic. oompa!! everybody clap your hands! fun times! :-D i went out to eat with my parents at applebees. i saw like 3 people that i knew there but i don't like any of them so i didn't say hi. lol. so then i was chilling and looking at people lj. cuz i'm nosy like that. and i clicked on jess's lil crush thing. haha. it said to put in 2 guys that you like at the time and since i dont like anyone i put in the 2 guys i was talking to at the time. just to see if i would ever be compatable with them. muuuhaha. it was funny. (i wont spill) omG i can't wait to see Wicked on broadway. i'm so excited because the soundtrack is Famazing! go download it now! NOW! i heart pubes!!!!!!!!!!! NOT!

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February 15th, 2004

Current Music: down town-petula something Subject: you look like the biggest penis i've ever seen... Time: 10:52 pm Current Mood: content

today was definately a crazy crazy day. went to church for the first time in like forever, because i am so devotely religious at this time. taught sunday school and played bingo (go me! and all the little 3 graders won but did i? NO!) then went to rehearsal. i don't even remember rehearsal it seemed so long ago! i love caro's song that she sings and shes like that was goood your majesty! lol! omg. i thought i lost the car key! i almost shitted my pants! i was running all around man looking for it. had to make my wawa trip! no rehearsal is good or counts without at least one trip to wawa! my fav! after rehearsal i went tanning for the first time!! i liked a lot! i don't know why but now i see how everyone says its addictive. its very calming. with the hot rays all over you. its like your laying on the beach, sunbathing...except you see the UV lights above you and your in a little weird tube thing! friggin orgasmic! haha! but i didnt get darker. tear. it'll take awhile for me to get tan. i'm so white i'm an uh-oh! i think i'm gonna go tomorrow after practice too. :-) i'm so gonna be siamese. "girls just wanna have fun ooh girls just wanna have fuun!" than i went out with jess to dinner! so i went and picked her up and we drove all the way to applebees!! i had to tell my parents that we were going to the Crystal Palace in Lakewood (i like the Regent better) and that her mom or brother was going to drive her. muuuuhahaha. but when we got to applebees the place was crazy crowded! who the heck goes out to eat at applebees on a sunday night! i do not understand! they're supposed be home watching 60 minutes! so then we just drove down route 9 (dun dun daaaaaaa) for awhile until we saw the Golden Bell Diner! so we were like oh ok! lets go there! so i made a right into what i thought was the entrance after jess telling me too! (jk) but it wasnt the friggin entrance! it was like a one way ramp bypas thingy to get off of rt 9! and we were going the wrong way!!!!!!!!! holy crap i was scared shitless! we were like shit! what do we do! my heart was pounding soooooooo hard and i was shaking! so jess is like grabbing the wheel trying to turn it around i'm freaking out trying to reverse and whatnot! cars were coming towards us while we were trying to do a K turn....whoa. thats scariness right there. the people in other cars must have thought we were completely crazy or high. plus i was really freaked out because what if i had gotten into anoteher accident? with jess in the car and on route 9! i would have been completely murdered! since i'm not supposed to do any of those things! can you freaking imagine? i can't keep doing stuff like that i'm going to have a heart attack. dinner was fun i had pancakes and a strawberry milkshake! i have been craving that for such such a long time! she just makes me laugh. everything she says. did you make that? what a dishwasher? like wow. so we felt like causing some raucus around town afterwards and did we ever! we were going to go to blockbuster and see this kid dan but he wasnt there. so then we went to shoprite for some fun times! and guess who was there?! kristian! i heart kristian! we hung around with him for awhile and i got a kristian hug! yea! we were going to buy something really embarrassing or funny at his register like a douche bag or something but then he got to come around and "collect baskets" with us instead! he's so funny! who has a hit and run when he was the one that was hit?! then we started talking about formal and i was like "yea i'm not going because i don't have a date" and he said something like "yes you do. you're going with me!" so yea whatever. haha! i'm so deep and explanitory aren't i! he was just joshin! muuuuuuuuhahahahaha! after i dropped jess off at home (8:30) i called my mom and said that i was leaving lakewood then but it only took me 10-15 minutes to get back to my house and i was going under the speed limit! i couldn't go home then! shed wonder a bit. so i stopped by unexpectadley to jill's house at the little slumber party that i could not attend. tear. sausage fest! haha! i wish i could have though. i've missed all the fun at jills for the last 2 nights!!!!!!! i'm such a...a...the boo radley word! crap what is that word again? RECLUSE! thats it! oh am i good or what?!

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February 14th, 2004

Current Music: ever so sweet- the early november Time: 11:08 pm Current Mood: tired

hey there! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ONE AND ALL! i want a valentine! not fiar! actually i'm not that upset that i dont have anyone. i'm happy with my friends being there. how sweet isnt it? :-) got in another fight with my parents. i felt like a 3 year old i had such a big temper tantrum! i was like screaming and crying. fun times. but you all should be very very proud of me....i drove! yes ladies and gentleman, i drove for the first time in over a month. oh man was it scary. especially since i was driving on rt. 9 to like walmart and kohls and all those cool places. my heart was going like BA BOOM BA BOOM! i swear the whole row or cars could hear it. my mom was pissing me off though. shed be like "nora watch." hello! cuz i can't see the car in front of me. and then...and then i drove all by myself (don't wanna be all by myyyyseellf)! going 30 mph. down to java moon but who cares! i did it and didn't get into a car accident! and then... ( i know it keeps getting better) i drove not one, not two, not even three, but FOUR people back to jill's house (.2 mi). whoa now, i'm a lil rebel now aren't i! jk! sleepy time.

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February 13th, 2004

Current Music: far from the home i love-fiddler Time: 10:46 pm Current Mood: drained

why hello there! guess what? i got a livejournal! i think we should all have a pizzarty for it (and me). i had a couple before but i never wrote in them so i just deleted them. plus i always forgot to tell people about them. muuuuhahahaha. but don't worry *i'm coming out* with this one! so in case all of you deeply and sincerely care about my fabulous day than i will continue to write. and if not the eff off! jk! i heart everyone! 1 period was fantastic! caro, jenna, jackie, the other girl, me, and jimmy (the lil pimp) sang val grams to random people. i mean, we started off doing the people that we were supposed to (wink) but our list was the shortest ever (whats that about?!) so we'd just go to classrooms and be like ummmm hey we have a val gram for mike derling from....cupid! it was famazing. 2 and 3 no one cares about those. 4 period....oh lordy. we were all (caro, hrushk, sake, tricarico, and i) trying to feel if our boobs are lopsided and weighing them. (mini me). so it looked like we groping ourselves (ooh baby!) and kipp saw us! "WHAT ARE YOU GIRLS DOING BACK THERE!" oh man. i almost pissed myself laughing. it rocked hardcore. but omg! ya know how in the beginning of the year one of them actually was bigger? and then they pretty much evened out, but i swear theres still a pretty big difference! cuz my left one sure seemed heavier to me! :'( so no reheasal. i didnt know what to do with myself! anyway, tina brooke and i wanted to go out to eat tonight. i haven't driven since the *accident* and i've wanted to like a lot, more than i want some other things (muhaha jk jk). and now that my glasses are FINALLY fixed what better oppurtunity?! but no, my effing parents had to piss me off and say no! because it was dark! uh-oh! it dark outside! cuz theres not any street lights, right? please. so we got into a huge fight about it and everything. whatever. i'm a horrible daughter. i don't deserve such great parents, right? but then they just had to say that its not their fault that i'm not still driving. that was just low. that was lower than low. that was like....yea can't think of the word. still. and then it just pushed me over the edge. i meant to get into a car accident, right? i was planning on it. one day i just thought to myself, "self, you know what would really piss off your parents, use up all your money, and cause as many problems as possible? A CAR ACCIDENT! what a great idea!" anyway, they ended up just leaving. didn't even know where the hell they went. so then i couldn't go out with my friends because they didnt leave money or a car. therefore, tina and brooke couldn't go out either. whatev. i sat on my couch in pity of my pathetic life. but today was a good day! until my parents walk in the door! thats when the fun begins! :-) and even though i don't have a bf right now. its ok. thats not really depressing me at all. i mean just a little kiss would be nice because i heart kisses. but its all good. i got my buddies! plus, valentines day is just another excuse to eat a lot of candies and chocolate without looking like a complete pig. L is for the way you look at me O is for the only one i see V is very very extraordinary E is even more than anyone that you adore i'm scirrred. i have to get the mail! at friggin 11:15 @night. who does that? i'm gonna get raped and kidnapped by the boogie man! so if im not at rehearsal tomorrow, you know what happened. dun dun daaaaaaa!!!! ps. for people in my history class- what was our hw? i think i lost the sheet! hehe woops!

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